Super Blue Blood Moon Reflections

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Hello my gorgeous blogging community, how I’ve missed thee!!

I have had so many things pop up since the last full moon, and I’m so grateful to be able to write and share with you all again.

As many of you know, I have switched gears on my blog to writing only during/ after a full moon, so that I can keep my writing feeling inspired, rather than like a chore. My two day a week endeavor was starting to feel mundane, so I cut it down significantly.

But here’s what: we have a lot to discuss!!

I want to talk about a big topic this month, with many nuances beneath it. Let’s discuss ENERGY!

Since our last full moon, I’ve been making major energetic shifts within my business and personal life. I’ve been focusing on dating more, drinking less, expanding my business opportunities, and narrowing my focus to only entrepreneurs. WOWEE!

But let’s get to the nitty gritty of what all of this means:

I have decided to put myself FIRST.

2018 has been full of lessons already, but the key point is that I started with the intention of creating more space for my Craft and my mental well being, so that I could fully prosper as a powerful witch and help others do so in the process. And that is how every goal should start: with intention.

Now, my clients know this very well, but what comes next is the scary part.

Destruction.

A lot of negative habits had to be destroyed in the process, and I feel like many of them have come to a close with this Full Moon.

The theme of this Full Moon is a tying of loose ends. The feelings that were stirred up since the August 2017 solar eclipse have come to a sort of resolution, and for me that meant minor self sabotage in both my business and personal affairs. And while they exist on a much smaller scale than a few years ago, we can always stand to improve, right?

First off, I have erected FIRM boundaries in my business. For too long I have been lax with clients, and even potential clients, for fear of losing them, but it took a real kick in the pants to practice what I preach and set rules for how I run my biz. I applied how I use boundaries in my day to day relationships and put them to use at WW, and the results I have seen are AMAZING. I wrote out a Mission Statement and Business Commandments and keep them in my planner so they are at the forefront of my mind.

Second, I have been working hard on cutting down on drinking. I have always been a social butterfly, and going out and enjoying a drink has been a regular part of my life. But I’m finding that, more than it being enjoyable, it has become a chore and a form of self sabotage, and while it doesn’t look like what it used to, Shawn 2.0 just isn’t here for it. It’s going to be a journey, but my intention is behind mindfulness 100% in 2018.

I always find that being honest in your journey and focusing on what really needs healing is the only way to get lasting results. Cutting corners and racing to the finish line is never going to make you feel fulfilled at the end of the day. So I hope my transparency doesn’t scare you, but rather inspires you to be honest with what you TRULY need to work on. Cuz honey, there’s always something.

So since I’ve been traveling through my destruction stages (The Tower and The Devil have been Tarot stalking me) I have kept my sights on the light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve already seen fantastic bouts of abundance as I work honestly through my “up-leveling” and can’t wait to see what’s in store the next go-around! I have manifested a speaking opportunity on a Summit of over 1500 women, a feature in a print magazine, new sponsors for my podcast, AND MORE. These mindset shifts are so important, and it takes guidance to stay on top of them.

So I invite you dear, to ask yourself, what needs to be destroyed today? What are you unavailable for? How can you become a better you?

Remember that transformation is a necessary part of life, and to stay witchy ( *)

 

Willpower and Self Trust

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It is my personal belief that willpower, or the Chariot, cannot exist without self love or self trust.

Here’s a thought: If you and a friend are going to a party, and said friend is going to be the designated driver, and said friend promises to only have one drink for the entire length of the party, would you feel at all comfortable taking that ride if you didn’t trust that promise?

So here it is imperative that trust exists in order to feel secure in the ride.

Now think of it this way: If you told yourself when you went to a party that you were going to only have one drink, and then you decided to get black-out drunk, you would stop trusting yourself, right?

Right.

When you initially don’t trust what you are saying as you make that promise to yourself, and you let the little gremlins step all over that promise, you’re showing that you have no conviction rooted in what you declared, even if it is subconscious. Without conviction there can be no willpower. And through transitive property, no willpower = no self love/ trust/ respect.

When you make a promise to yourself, you will stick to it out of self respect if it is present. You would do it for a friend, so why wouldn’t you do it for number one? Letting yourself lose control is a powerless feeling, and you want to get the reigns of the Chariot sturdy.

This is not to say that you should beat yourself up over the fact that willpower is hard for you. For some it is a practice, and some (like those in anonymous programs) have to give it up to God or whoever in order to just make it by. That in it of itself is showing self respect because you know the shit-show to come if you try to play with moderation.

This can be practiced in many different situations. Like when you know you only have twenty dollars until your next paycheck but your friends want to go out or go shopping, and out of total disregard for your financial situation, you pull out your credit card and shut your eyes to try to ignore the bad decision. You try to convince yourself that it’s fine and the whole while you’re literally dying of anxiety because of a decision YOU made to hurt YOU. You could have said no. But you chose anxiety.

I am no stranger to this. I had zero self respect so I kept putting myself in situations that made that abundantly clear. After 15 grand in credit card debt, a couple eating disorders, and a damaging relationship, its time to wake up and take responsibility for your role in your willpower. It isn’t easy but if you cut the shit and start taking responsibility for loving and respecting yourself, you’ll start to gain the trust back as a result.

At the end of the day its finding out where you are in your journey. No one is ever happy with the fact that they over indulged. It always allows you to panic. So diminish that feeling by practicing self love,  vis a vis, willpower. Get ahold of that Chariot, make good decisions, and stay witchy ( *)